Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Time to relax.

Whoever thought that being a SAHM was all soap operas and bon bons should think again! I can't believe how much the days just run together and each day seems strangely the same. Don't get me wrong, I would not trade being at home with the little one for anything. I would still make the same choice to leave my job and be at home. I think that my biggest problem, is that I don't really want G to help me when he gets home from work. I feel like, he gets up early and goes out there to do his job so that I can have the luxury of staying home with the little one, so he should be able to relax when he gets home and not have to worry about the housework, the little one, or anything. It makes me so crazy, that I feel guilty when he does help....which is all the time. He always wants to feed the little one when he gets home, or he's vacuuming, or doing dishes, or something. When I tell him he doesn't have to do it, he tell me he does, because I need a break too. What a guy! Nonetheless, I still feel guilty and sometimes.....inadequate. Like, I should have had all that crap done, so it wasn't there for him to even do. I know this is crazy, but that's how I feel. Anyway, I'll have to give this some more thought, and figure out how to make myself, a) more productive so I get more done while G is at work. b) not feel so guilty when he does help. c) find a way to go to bed earlier -I'm such a night owl. d) find more time to scrap!

So, I figured out how to add a video, and this song always makes me think about a relaxing vacation....I thought I'd share!


island girl said... I know it's not all bon-bons and soaps...but I would do it in a heartbeat!! Which is something I thought I would never want!! But now it's my goal!!

While I was pregnant I did stay at home, and so I understand how you feel. I always wanted the house cleaned and dinner ready for when TJ came home, sounds old fashion, but I thought it was the least I could do for staying home...and I didnt have kids at the time. So really, what was my excuse. G is right though, being a SAHM is a "job" in so many ways. My girlfriend who is a SAHM put it in perspective for me. She says when she goes on vacation..she is STILL with the kids...where as when her husband goes on vacation..he literally gets to LEAVE work.

I know you'll get it all worked out girl...balance...that's what it's all about!!

Lara said...

That's wonderful Greg helps out. Luis does a lot around here and we don't have kids yet. It's great when you have a DH that doesn't mind chipping in. :-) Don't feel bad - it's wonderful!

cheerful cropper said...

i don't have any experience with being a SAHM, but life in general is always hard to balance. you have good days and some bad ones. what matters is you get through them smiling, taking pictures along the way ;)