~~~~THEY ARE BACK~~~~

Yay!! My sweet heavenly dream of a drink is back at a Starbucks near you!!! The long missed by me, and the much enjoyed by me Mocha Coconut Frappaccino is now available again! I was so excited when they introduced the new Banana Coconut Frappaccino, that I excitedly whispered to my local Barista...does this mean, that I can now order my Mocha Coconut Frappaccino's again? The word I'd been longing to hear were finally echoing in my happy ears....YES!!! I've been drinking them faithfully for a full two weeks now, with no stopping in sight! Shhh...don't tell anyone, but I ended up having TWO today! The first one, I picked up while running those errends and the second one I picked up on my way to get pampered with a pedicure. Sweet heaven! A good book, a comfy massage chair, someone massaging your feet and making them all soft and pretty, AND a Mocha Coconut Frappaccino! All is good in the world again!

Did you know, that there are a total of 4 Starbucks in the town I live? Did you also know, that as of today, there are now 9 coffee shops in the town I live? Dude, I guess me and my neighbors really need our caffine! Peete's coffee opened up at 1pm today. It is right next door to the dry cleaner we use, and at 12:30, there was a line of people waiting at the front door, kind of like that Mervyn's commercial where the chick is saying open, open, open, open. Now that the Mocha Coconut Frappaccino is back though, I'm going to have to remain faithful to my Starbucks Barista.

It's time for a margarita or two!

What a beautiful day it was today! G was off of work, so he let me sleep in! Yay!! What a great hubby to get up early with little J and take care of all his morning needs! I love G's days off, because he always wants to take care of little J in the morning for me. After sleeping in a little, I did have some not so fun errends to run. Had to pick up a blood test order slip from my OB's office, and then drop off another form at J's pediatrician. Then, off to get my blood drawn! Wahoo...I just love going to the phlebotomist! Anyway, I went in, at noon, and there was one person working and like 10 people waiting to have blood drawn. I decided that I would go back later. I could tell it was gonna be quite awhile, since they were trying to take blood from a sweet little baby and not having the best of luck. Finally went back in around 4:30, now there were only 5 people waiting. Anyway, before I continue, I've got to add my gripe of the day right here:

When you go into a medical office for services, and they tell you that they are not a authorized provider for your insurance carrier, why must you hold up the rest of us who are in the right place and argue the point?

Okay, so anyway, it took awhile for me to get the blood draw done, because strangely enough they had never heard of the test that they were ordering for me. I told the guy that it was okay, since I'd only heard of it 3 weeks ago! They finally found the code for my obscure little test, and I was on my way.

So, what does a girl want after giving her blood and anxiously awaiting the results...yep, she wants to not have to cook dinner, and wants a margarita!

G took little J and I to Chili's for dinner. Yummy, and so close to our house....love not going to far from home. So, I order my margarita and we have our dinner, and oh my! I think I need another margarita! Yep, I had two margaritas! Since I don't drink very often, and even though I ate a big meal, I was a loopy girl after those two margaritas!

I want to thank all of you how have sent me emails and posted comments on my blog, that I really appreciate all your good wishies, prayers and support of little J, G and myself. It really means a lot.

I hope you never lose your joyful personality.

I've been thinking about this lately. When we first got little J's diagnosis, this is what G said to me. He told me that my joyful personality and my positive attitude were the first things (besides my cute appearance lol) that drew him to me when we first met. He also told me that those were his favorite qualities about me and that it inspired him! He also said that he hoped I would never lose that, especially with little J's diagnosis. WOW! He never told me that before.

Lately inside, I've been feeling a little torn between the hopeful and hopeless. I've kept my hopeful face on for everyone to see, trying to push the hopeless deep down. I know if I'm hopeless, that I will lose my joyful personality, my positive attitude and I won't be doing little J any good. It's only been 3 weeks since we got our diagnosis, but I've been fighting these feelings. See, G knows me, he knows that I've always wanted to be a mommy and have that "dream" family. Getting to the point in our lives where we would start having children was the first thing I ever worked really hard at. As I've said before, G is a big planner, so he had many tasks that we needed to complete before we started thinking of formula, bottles and diapers. Anyway, with the diagnosis, he was really afraid of how it would affect me. I was afraid as well.

I've been thinking about this a lot lately. Yesterday was the first day, that I didn't have one hopeless thought. Not once. Today, there was not one hopeless thought in my head! I have been feeling nothing but hope and positive thoughts for this journey now! I have been meeting and chatting with so many mommys who for one reason or another have felt the exact same. These women have inspired me! Ya'll know who you are! Later this week, I'm having lunch with a few other mommys who have children that have the same diagnosis as little J. One, even has a little boy who is one month older than little J. I'm really excited about it, because these women will be able to relate to exactly how I'm feeling, and they are all a wealth of knowledge! I can't wait! I really hope that little J and little A can grow up being great friends!

There is also a lot of very promising research going on! I'll be getting the information to sign little J up for some of these at the lunch. G and I have decided, that we should sign him up, if we go and we find out that it isn't something we want for our little one, we can always turn it down. I don't want them doing anything crazy you know. I do want him to have the opportunity though. Don't worry, I'm not looking for the miracle cure, but if one happens, I'm not going to tell it no!

Oooh~! And can you believe I actually scrapped! Hopeful and Joyful me = Scrapping mojo! Now, if I could only get my scraproom cleaned up...no mojo for that!

Thank you!

I know it's been awhile since I've posted. Things have been crazy busy around here. Little J has been diagnosed with a rare non-hereditary genetic disorder. Needless to say, G and I have been heartbroken. It definately was not the news we were hoping for, nor that we expected. I really want to thank everyone who has been saying prayers for us and sending good wishies our way. We really appreciate them.

We are so thankful to have so many wonderful and supportive friends and family members.

Little J is doing well, he is very healthy and we have no worries about that. It is more of a co-ordination and developmental disorder. We've been working on getting him hooked into all the right programs for early intervention and setting up the various doctors he may need in the future. Man, am I sick of doctors offices and forms to fill out.

Little J is an amazing little boy, and he brings so much love and joy to us each and every day. We have complete faith that he is going to be amazing. We have seen so much progress and determination in him, and we know that God is with our family each step of the way.

At first, when we were first going for the blood work, I prayed to God every night for everything to come out fine with his tests. When we got the results, I was at a loss. I prayed to God that night, asking him why and telling him that I just didn't know what to pray for now. That's when I just asked him to keep our family close and to give us the strength, peace and encouragement we needed to do everything that little J needs. I also asked him to help me trust my faith in him.

The next day, I was really just out of it, G told me to get out of the house for awhile, so I headed for the mall. I had walked around aimlessly for about an hour, when all of the sudden, I was just going to lose it. I knew I had to get out of there. I was a bit dazed and just aiming myself for the nearest exit, when I ran into Sharon from our adult bible fellowhip (ABF) at church. What a blessing that was! It was so nice to see her and talk to her. I felt so much better! The following week, I woke up one day and just felt like crying. Wondering, why this was happening to my little one. About an hour later I received a phone message from Nicole also from our ABF at church. She has been down the same road we are traveling, and just hearing her message made me feel so much better.

I do have complete faith! I know that there will be obstacles ahead for our family, but I know that we will have exactly what we need. I know that God has a plan in all of this, and I know that little J is going to make some amazing differences in our lives and out in the world! He is in one word PERFECT!